chiaroscuro

The heart never learns.

Alas, the brain is the same too.

I hate how easily I can fall for somebody. And to overthink. And overcomplicate things.

I don't think I'm a lost cause - okay, maybe not too badly - but I suppose I can understand how people can just...don't reciprocate a feeling. Because life is never that simple, never that perfect.

What I don't understand is how less worthy people end up paired whereas I am #foreveralone.

(Oops, did I sound rather egoistical there?)

I know it's just not my time. Yet? Or is it ever going to be?

Maybe I shouldn't rush things. But time is not exactly on my side.

I suppose in a way...this is rather suicidal of me.

Apologies.

I am afraid to hope.

After all, what are the chances?

Maybe you're too in love with yourself...that there is no more space for any love for me.

Why do people seek it - heck, why do I keep on going in circles - when it only gives me pain?

...Come to think of it, the first thing that crossed my mind when I realised that I'm actually liking someone was "Oh shoot". What does that say about me?