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Neutrality
Sep. 14th, 2011 04:16 pmSo many things all around, so many thoughts flood my head, so many feelings invade my chest.
Given my usual attitude, I tend to ignore most things. That's what people usually say, yes? "Don't mind, don't mind", "That's just how people are", and "You can't change other people, but you can change how you think" and so on.
Come a certain point, I can snap. Yesterday, I probably scared a colleague of mine...but he's the least of my worries.
Maybe people just don't get me. All the smiles I wear are not really me. Even though I am capable of writing happy and funny things...there remains a part of me that can't seem to shake all the gloom away.
It's like a sugar rush...One moment people may see me all sunshine, the next moment a storm may suddenly rage. I doubt it's bipolar disorder though...
I think I am lenient enough. But when people overstep my boundary...heads will roll.
...I may be capable of being vindictive after all.
Given my usual attitude, I tend to ignore most things. That's what people usually say, yes? "Don't mind, don't mind", "That's just how people are", and "You can't change other people, but you can change how you think" and so on.
Come a certain point, I can snap. Yesterday, I probably scared a colleague of mine...but he's the least of my worries.
Maybe people just don't get me. All the smiles I wear are not really me. Even though I am capable of writing happy and funny things...there remains a part of me that can't seem to shake all the gloom away.
It's like a sugar rush...One moment people may see me all sunshine, the next moment a storm may suddenly rage. I doubt it's bipolar disorder though...
I think I am lenient enough. But when people overstep my boundary...heads will roll.
...I may be capable of being vindictive after all.
